Since the first day I created this blog, I was insidiously waiting for the moment I could write about overcoming this part of my life. Contrary to my last post, I'm happy to say that I am close to making this experience a thing of the past. As a last effort I used the remains of my college savings toward a doctor in Manhattan. Fast forward about four months later and I can confidently say my overall quality of life has improved significantly. I haven't crossed the finish line yet, but while the slow acceptance of returning to an orderly life is exciting, it's also surreal. Gradually immersing myself back into things I once did with no second thoughts are now things I do with slight hesitation.
This situation is most comparable to being
thrown in a whirlwind, and surviving only to be spit back out into
reality with these newly created expectations. During this ongoing fight I always thought after I won that I would be a different, better person. The truth is, I am the same person with a different view on life. Issues I thought would no longer mean anything to me at this point are still present. I am realizing I cannot single handedly change the way the world operates or how we all see each other, but I am in full control of my impact on the world.
If anyone were to take anything away from following my story, I hope it's happiness. Seek happiness within yourself and in the love you share with others. Be ambitious, live your life to it's fullest potential and don't let any circumstance derail you from accomplishing your goals. Be independent, always pick yourself up more times than you fall down and always put your best foot forward.
The most beautiful people come from the hardest, most strenuous experiences.
-Dani
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